the road not taken part 2 : crossroads

it's been sometime since my last posts..did a little bit of nothing..laid around..thought i was going to sleep..but sleep never came..talked to my sister today on the phone..and now i have inspiration for this blog.

i write this now not really knowing how i want to discuss this..or just exactly what i'm gonna write about..maybe it will just be another diarrhea of typing..like that assignment teachers give you in class..write something and don't lift your pen from the paper..as i sit in the living room, listening to the tv..waiting for the next gust of breeze to evaporate the sweat off my forehead..listening to the washing machine clean my bedsheets..i write this...

why do we go through things..what purpose does it bring..what purpose do we bring..as we go about our daily lives..working...going to school...doing chores...what does it all mean..and how do we know what's instore for us..are we meant to know..will it be revealed as we live out dream/hopes/ promises.. if our path on this road we call life has been bumpy..facing obstacles here and there...is it due to the fact that we did something wrong..is it something we did/or did not do..why...why am i here and where am i going..

i sat on the other end of the phone today..pondering just these questions..where am i going..what job am i going to have..am i going to be a successful nurse, am i going to pass my NCLEX, am i going to meet the man for me..and when..am i going to be a mother someday..will i be a good one at that..am i going to affect peoples lives..am i going to matter to this world..

my sister had questions too..they were quite different from mine..but all with the same underlying meaning...we both travel this road called life..in different ways...in different stages..in different circumstances..her road bumps are different then mine..and we both don't know where we're heading...but as i write this...to you all who may be reading..to my beautiful sister..to me...i tell you what matters...what really matters.. is that we're still traveling...we're still riding..and it's OKAY not to be the driver..but the passenger...for the driver often knows what direction we're heading, when we're gonna get there and why we just passed over that huge bump..all for the purpose of getting us to the distination..the driver knows where we're going..and we may be left confused and in the dark..but just trust the driver...because He'll get you, we, us to our distination...trust and believe...in time you'll see where you're heading too..and as you look back towards the rear window..you'll see where you've been..