i'm a grown up now!!!!

this is weird...for the first time in my 26 years on this planet, now i'm finally starting to live as a grown up..this may seem belated to some since i'll be thirty in 4 years and this should have happened from the time I graduated high school...but that's another story...
so here i am...one step closer in my nursing career to being a mother baby rn with a new job at a top hospital for women and children in the state, working on a mother-baby care unit..
here i am living away from home..out of my parents house..in my own place..with a roommate and her cat...paying bills, writing checks, learning that i can't also buy what i want..fending for myself..
and here i am attempting and wanting to learn,explore human relationships..particulary that between a woman and man..and just what it means and feels like to have the companionship of a man...
never in my life have i felt so unsure, scared and overwhelmed , but also never in my life have i felt like such a woman, worthy and alive!! and never in my life have i felt so close to God!...
i guess i am a grown up now!!!

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