thought about you today...

i thought about you today in church..imagining you sitting by my side..
don't know exactly what you look like but i'm pretty sure God has shown me you in my dreams and thoughts..
your face is a blur..can't distinguish your facial features, hair color, height
but i know it's you..

i think about you alot really..
before i go to bed, when i wake up, as i make breakfast, in the shower, in the car..
i think about you before i go out and wonder if i'm gonna meet you that night..
i think about you in resturants and wonder if you're there..
i think about you in bars and wonder if a caught a glimpse of you or if i caught your eye..
or wonder if you'll be roaming the halls of the hospital i'm sure to be working at soon enough..
i'm pretty sure i haven't met you yet though, because my mind and heart tell me so..
God tells me so..
so i continue to wait for the day, night, circumstance, moment when we come face to face..
i wonder if i'll know at that time if it's you..
maybe i'll think it's you but it's really an imposter..
posing to be you..stealing my heart along the way...just to throw it away..
or maybe i'll come to know it's not you and flee the situation..
whatever the case may be, i hope we finally come face to face..
and i'm more than willing to wait a day, months, and even years till that day..

i've made it this far on my own, with me, myself and i,and enjoying it
because God told me i need to in order to be ready for you..
contrary to what you may think buddy i may very well want you..
but i don't need you...let's get that straight..
and you'll want me in return but you won't need me..
because alone we are awesome, accomplishing many milestones and goals...
but together we are MIGHTY and the possiblities are endless..
till then i'll wait and think about you..
not because i'm desperate..let's not get it twisted..
i'm way past that point i'm sure of it..
i think about you only because you'll upset everything i'm used to up until that moment..
in a good way that is..and my life forever will be changed..

so because of this, i wonder..
is it gonna be an instant connection..maybe..maybe not..
am i gonna immediately be drawn to you..or shy away in reluctance...
more importantly are you gonna know it's me..
or will you turn away and look for someone skinnier, thicker, lighter, prettier, smarter..
no..that won't be you..
cause you'll know it's me..
and you won't want another after me..
after that moment, you'll want to know everything about me down to my every thought, desire and dreams
you'll seek desparately to see me, talk to me, eat with me, walk with me, facebook/myspace/twitter me..
cook with me, watch tv with me (or a movie), travel with me..
sleep by my side, comfort me..
and introduce me to your world...

and i'll follow you..